"It's Just Emotions" (lesson 6)

By the end of this entry I would express 6 sensations

I'm happy, even though it's sometimes hard to be. I don't want to lose so much time unhappy, so i try my best to erase that, even if i where to mask it, doesn't matter, at the end I have a life to take charge of, others don't. Be happy, it can't be that bad, and if it is it can't get any worse!

I'm in love, and it's the best feeling to experience. Yes, sometimes i wonder if it's true, if this whole “love” thing actually exists! It's just so stereotypical to fall in love that it just makes you wonder if it ever was real... It must be real, there hasn't been a stronger feeling I've felt. Fall in love. Don't live in the misunderstanding that it doesn't exist, once you believe in it, doors will open, you will love yourself, your family, your work much more than you ever thought possible.

I'm confused. I'm not quite sure this is an emotion, but it sure feels very emotional. My heart says one thing, my head says another, and I end up not knowing what to do. Yes, it's lessons, its tests from God, but I don't want to hear that, I KNOW that. What do I want to hear? Nothing, feel... I want to feel the words in my ear, the touch on my skin, I want a hug... pathetic I know, but it's almost a cure from everything that a soul may endure. A simple wrapping of arms around another persons body to give/ receive comfort, a hug!

I'm afraid. I don't know why, I am strangely at ease, yet I am afraid of leaving, afraid of change... too much has changed in the last years, I should be well immune, but it's taken a different road this time.

I am in anticipation of what's to come. I am desperate to know my life's outcome, what will happen to me, what decisions am I going to make, what career path I will take, will I keep promises made? I like to take life as it comes, but right now I just want to know what will happen, big decisions do that to you... I hope it all goes well.

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