Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Does it happen?

What is going on? seriously..
I feel ... empty, like someone has literally carved my insides and left me in the sun to dry.
No feelings, emotions, beliefs... just numb!
im being verbally asaulted, taunted, backstabbed... and i dont feel
No physical or emotional pain, kind of heavenly in a twisted sense.
Not to care about what's being said about you, not to ache, not to regret, feel ashamed or remorse... to basicly STOP caring!!
But i feel dead, like ive lost my purpose!
Just put on a smiley mask every morning and pretend.. all day long, everyday... just pretend... and i dont feel!!
So what IS going on?? does this happen to anyone but me???
???

Loud..

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

it happens..
but with the right amount of optimism and lots and lots of praying for guidance, it shouldn't last too long..

life's unfair, but we all have to believe that it is good, even when we can't seem to find the good in it.. it's what keeps us going..

the sun wlll shine!! :)